11
Mar

The Calling

Filed in My Life As A Teenager, The Way I Am

The realization struck me hard.

The only thing that I could do was staring at the assignment. I feel SO STUPID. Stupid for playing too much. Stupid for keep procrastinating. And stupid for addicted to surfing the internet. The stupidest thing is, not to be able to answer the questions eventho I’ve all the notes and reference.

I tried my best to hide my emotions. Slowly, I’m crying in my heart.. But it was so unbearable.. And the tears start to falling slowly.

I want the best. Not only for my self. But for my parents and family.

But somehow. Those A(s) are slowly disappear. The hope of getting 3.5 above seems almost impossible. The truth is.. I’m scared to death. What if I didnt get 3.5 above.. What if I didnt get a scholarship..

I couldnt imagine how I’m going to continue my study without scholarship. Seriously. This is so unbearable. *sigh*

Please laugh out loud at my stupidity. Thanks god there’s less than two weeks before the final exam. I’m not gonna give up. I’ll try all my best. It’s pay back time.