Taken using Nikon D3000

Readers!

You have to help me. Seriously! This is a HUGEEEEEEEE problem!

Korang tau kan betapa gila nya Saffa dengan photography ni and I have been wanting a DSLR since like forever. I loveeeeeeeeee taking picture! Sangat sangat suka. Sometimes I was so crazy with photography sampai whenever I see something, I could imagine it in a form of picture.

For example, masa Mak Saffa tengah borak-borak dengan Mak Cik Saffa dekat depan pintu rumah dekat kampung. Saffa macam boleh bayang kan if I use a suitable ISO, low shutter speed, it would turn out as a silhouette! And everytime I see people smiling happly, I would be thinking it would look great on pictures etc.

Anyways, lets get to the point. I’m thinking whether I should by a DSLR or Semi SLR / Super Zoom / High End Camera.

Somehow I’m not really fond of DSLR anymore. But, if I’m going to buy a DSLR, I would be getting myself a Nikon D5000 or D3000 (depend on the budget). For Semi SLR, I’m not really sure. Maybe Panasonic DMC-LX3 (Yes Aneesah, your camera. LOL)

BTW, what made me thinking about DSLR vs Semi SLR are;

Taken using Panasonic DMC LX3

1) Cost. Obviously Semi SLR is much cheaper. Besides that, DSLR  nak kena ada Flash for better pictures, 50mm lens for close up pictures and other lens for super zoom etc.. That would cost a lot!

And look at the RED BUG picture! Argh. Damn you DSLR. Hahaha.

2) Quality. Siapa kata kamera Super Zoom cant take decent pictures like DSLR? Saffa pakai Sony DSC Hx1 and seriously, the pictures are pretty good to me! Plus DSLR cant take close up pictures like Hx1 (super zoom)! Urbanscapes 2010

3) Functions. Okay. I have to give prop to DSLR. You have a full control compared to semi SLR. Maksud Saffa manual auto focus. Aperture. Shutter etc. But, if not mistaken, there are a lot of semi SLR out there yang ada full control like DSLR jugak kan? Entah lah.

4) Features. Semi SLR ada macam2 mode. Auto Intelligent. Panorama. Close up. Etc. DSLR? Err..

5) DSLR are not allowed in certain places / event such as concert.

Entah lah. So Freaking confuse lah. I really wanted a DSLR. But, macam nak Semi SLR. Lagi senang nak handle. Not too bulky, tak mahal and tak payah fikir nak upgrade macam DSLR.

Taken using Nikon D60

But somehow people with DSLR make me feel insecure. Iya lah, kita pakai kamera biasa jer. Tak boleh lah nak lawan dengan DSLR awak yang besar tu. Malu lah nak keluar kan kamera kita yang biasa-biasa ni jer untuk amik gambar wedding / gradution etc. Jelous ah. Hahaha.

Tau kan sekarang ni DSLR is like a BIG thing. Pergi mana-mana jer bawak DSLR, padahal pakai auto jer. Ceyh.

Urgh. Sometimes Saffa rasa macam Saffa ni photographer wannabe. But. Memang betul pun. CUMA. I dont have any intetion nak jadi REAL PHOTOGRAPHER. I just like taking pictures. And “Photographer Wannabe” tu pun just for my own satisfaction. Tak layak langsung nak di panggil Photographer.

I LOVE taking pictures because I like the idea of preserving the memories. I dont know why but I just like pictures and camera!

And I HATE my was-stolen-digital camera due to the blowing flash and obviously lousy night pictures quality. Tiba-tiba menyesal plak sebab benci dekat camera digital Saffa tu. Dah kena curi baru sedar betapa berharga nya kamera tu! Maafkan Saffa Encik Olympus. *nak menangis*

I know photoghraphy isnt about the camera, but the photographer itself. But. Do you know how frustrating it is bila kita tau that there’s a better equipment out there yang boleh hasil kan gambar yang kita nak?

Taken using Panasonic DMC LX3

Anyways, seriously, DSLR is kinda hard to handle. And it’s freaking berat okayy. Lagi-lagi kalau ada Flash. Fulamak. Rasa macam nak patah tangan. Pastu Saffa ni dah la tangan tak reti nak duduk diam. Mesti ada jer picture yang shaky. Susah nak stabil. And most of Semi SLR camera ada mode for shaky picture/anti blur kan?

TAPI, sumpah Saffa takut menyesal giler kalau tak beli DSLR. Tapi. Kalau menyesal sebab beli DSLR, boleh tak nak jual pastu beli Semi SLR? Hahaha.

People, I need your opinion. You guys have been reading my blog for a certain time kan? And you have seen me & this blog ‘growing’ from something to other things. Tak tau lah apa yang korang fikir about my crappy blog ni. But yeah. IN YOUR OWN OPINION. Which one should I buy?

Ah. Panjang gila nak mampus entry ni! Siapa yang baca sampai habis sila komen. Kalau tak, penat jer korang baca sampai habis. Hahaha.

OH CRAP. Just saw the promotion for Panasonic Lumix LX3. RM1499. SD card, Tripod, Screen Protector, Camera Case, WIDE Angle & UV Adapter. Lumix LX5 (latest model) RM1599 without those things in LX 3 package.

Nikon D3000 RM1499 / D5000 RM2290 (with 4Gb memory card + bag)

Canon EOD 1000D 1699 with all those things (complete set). I dont really like Canon. It feel so plastic. Sorry Canon users! =.=”

BTW, thanks a lot for your consolation and advives about my loss. I’m a bit okayy now. Tho sometimes I feel extremely stupid amd sad. Honestly, it was quite traumatise. Nevermind! Aal iz well. InsyaAllah.

Remember, there will always be a time;

A time when you feel so freaking stress with all the things that happened around you. School, Societies, Friends, Family or Life.

And you keep asking “Why why why!?” with tears running on your cheek. You feel so tired and exhausted with everything. Which eventually make you wonder IF you can end everything by simply jump off from the building.

You look at the window, pondering and crying wholeheartedly. Rasa macam nak gila!

“Penat. penat. PENAT!”, says you. And you keep thinking what should you do next. What must you do to solve the problem. All you ever wanted is to live happily ever after (which’s obviously only happen in Disney movies).

“And you’re so tired you dont sleep at night
As your heart is trying to mend
You keep it quiet but you think you might
Disappear before the end

And its strange that you cannot find
Any strength to even try
To find a voice to speak your mind
When you do, all you wanna do is cry

Well maybe you should cry…”

Song for you – Alexi Murdoch

If you are in this situation, I’ve been you. *hug* And I’m over it. Remember, there will always be a time like this and I strongly recommend you to read THIS & THIS.

Allah does not impose on any self any more than it can stand. (Surat al-Baqara, 286)

So verily, with the hardship, there is relief,
Verily, with the hardship, there is relief . So when you have finished (from your occupation), then stand up for Allâh’s worship (i.e. stand up for prayer). And to your Lord (Alone) turn (all your intentions and hopes and) your invocations. (Surat al-Inshirah: 5-8)

It’s good to be home. Pokerface. I’m good at it.

BTW, life is too short to stress yourself with something stupid, that does not even deserve to be an issues in your life.

Happy Ramadhan!

Hello AWESOME People!

Ramadhan is coming LESS THAN A WEEK! Great! Sumpah tak sabar giler nak puasa. Tak sabar nak bangun pagi. Tak sabar nak sahur & berbuka puasa dengan family/roomates. Mengaji. Pergi terawikh. Tahun ni tolong lah bagi semangat Ramadhan ni kekal daripada first day sampai the last day. Hehehe.

Ada lagi! Tak sabar nak balik kampung, tak sabar nak puasa dekat kampung, tak sabar nak jumpa  ‘family’, tak sabar nak raya dekat kampung. (InsyaAllah)

Tak sabar jugak nak tunggu hari Isnin ni sebab duit belanja dah habis! Jadi.. bila pergi Jaya Jusco tadi kena pinjam RM50 daripada HUNNY tersayang. =.=

Tak sabar nak balik rumah next week! Puasa dengan family. Sahur & Bukak puasa dengan family. Tak sabar balik rumah sebab masa bulan puasa ni lah baru rasa macam “Yes, this is my home!” sebab pekerja semua dah balik jadi tinggal Mak, Ayah, Kakak dengan Adik lelaki. Tak lupa juga Abang.

Tak sabar nak balik rumah sebab dah dua minggu tak balik rumah lepas tu senyap-senyap Mak, Ayah, Kakak dengan Adik Lelaki pergi SOGO untuk shopping raya. T___T

LAGI tak sabar nak balik rumah lepas tu buat bising, membebel, pot pet tak henti-henti macam budak kecik KENAPA KENAPA mesti minggu ni jugak nak pergi JOHOR untuk shopping perabot! KENAPAAAAAAA? Nak ikutttttttt. ;(

Sekarang ni memang paling tak sabar nak balik rumah. Tak sabar nak peluk & cium tangan Nik & Wea (Mak & Ayah). Rindu. Tak sabar nak duduk dalam bilik Nik lepas tu borak-borak pasal gosip artis Malaysia. Tak sabar nak usik Wea, “Wea!” *sengih macam kerang busuk* “Jom amik gambar!” *ready nak amik gambar myspace angel* “WEA! Senyum larr. Gigi mana? Gigi..” Lepas tu kena ketuk kepala. =.=”

Rindu betul duduk dalam bilik, online dengan kusyuknya lepas tu Ayah masuk bilik, “Wat gapo tek eyh?“ *usya skrin laptop lepas tu ketuk kepala Saffa* =.=”

Haish. Tak sabar pulak nak cuti!

“As I grew older, I became more childish around my parents. Dalam bahasa pasar, GEDIK. Maybe it because I understand them better NOW compared to when I was young. Kenapa lambat sangat Saffa betul-betul sedar betapa BESAR GILA NAK MAMPUS cinta parents Saffa pada Saffa?” ;(

just because you own a DSLR it doesn’t mean you’re awesome.
it just say you’re spoiled.

just because you take photos with DSLR it doesn’t mean they are awesome.
it just say you can take photo.

just because you hang your DSLR on your neck it doesn’t mean you are cool.
it just say you’re a conformist.

just because you have DSLR it doesn’t mean you’re photography literate.
it just say you’re showing off.

if you think you’re none of the above,

proof me wrong.

take a photo. put it up. unedited.
try using an SLR. compare the shits you produce with an SLR with shits you produce with a DSLR.
tell me what SLR & DSLR is without looking it up.

My p.o.v on DSLR?
Other than expensive? It is overrated.
If you work for it to own it, then I salute you.
If you bought it with your own hard earned money, I say, use it wisely, make it worth every penny.

The first time I found out about SLRs, I thought no one but the professionals can own it.
because you don’t see EVERYONE carrying it around at all. I thought it was exclusive.

and that was way before everyone was “into” it.
before wedding photography got famous.
before everyone knew the “definition” of portraiture, shutter, aperture, exposure, pixel, resolution, ISO, lens, strobe, exif, jpeg, etc.

Now that everyone seems to know everything about photography, it makes me less interested and bothered in taking photos.
Since they are ohsosuperior, why not just take the photos from them?

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Tak. Tak terasa. I know it wasnt meant for me kan Jem. Hehehe.

HEY, What’s wrong with you?

Stop making my life miserable lah.

Yes. You! Snatch thieves, Molestors, Rapists, Kidnappers etc..

I want to go out and play. I want to go out and have fun with my friends. I just want to go out. Yeah. Thanks to ALL OF YOU. I’m stuck in my home..

If my mom wont let me go to Urbanscapes this Saturday. Just wait and see. I’m gonna marry someone who is VERY influential in laws or whatsoever. All of you gonna DIE DIE DIE for giving me such a hard life as a teenager!

Troublesome betul lah. What’s wrong with you? Cant you just live properly and stop doing all those shitty things?

And YOU, MALAYSIA. Why oh why lah you are so UNSAFE.

Tak habis habis dengan RAGUT RAGUT RAGUT. KIDNAP KIDNAP KIDNAP. =(

Yo Ministers! Cant you please do something?! STOP TRYING TO MAKE MALAYSIA SO FREAKING ABSOLUTELY AWESOME IN THE EYES OF THE WORLD WHEN THE CRIME RATE IS SO FREAKING HIGH.

Tak payah lah nak defend Malaysia and compare to this and that and say that AT LEAST MALAYSIA this and that OR MALAYSIA IS SAFER THAN bla bla bla.

Haiyo, Do something lah!

Yes. I’m emo because of Urbanscapes! SCREW YOU CRIMINALS!

P/s: I should hire a bodyguard kowt.

I’m not picky or fussy. BUT, I really really cant take it anymore. This is the worst food-sickness I ever experience. Cafe Mahallah Nusaibah sucks A LOT.

The only reason why I survived the first semester is because of Yong Tau Fu Stall, Chicken Chop Stall, Nasi Lemak Stall, Sizzling Stall and Mee Kari Stall. I did not eat Mahallah Nusaibah’s “Masakan Panas” at all during my first semester at UIA Gombak. Like, Seriously!

The food sucks A LOT. A LOT. A LOT. A LOT. Oh ya, not to forget.. “Nasi Campur” during lunch time SUCKS too!

Okayy. So, yeahh.. That just make me a fussy eater right? =.=”

BUT BUT BUT.. The food seriously sucks! It is worse than the food at MRSM Kuantan’s Dewan Makan when I was there. *sigh* I dont know why, but it just intolerable. My current weight is 40.5 kg, that just SO NOT RIGHT! ;(

Ah. I hate short sem. If only all the stalls are open. But, frankly speaking.. I’m also tired with those foods. I guess I need to go home more often next time. Not once a month. Or else I would become a walking skeleton.

Nevermind! One more week to go, and then.. I’m HOME for the next three weeks baby! Yay! Cant wait to finish the exams and go home.

So. Study Saffa Study. Your CAM marks sucks a lot too!

(Inspired by Aneesah’s post)

1. I act completely different when I’m alone, in group (with cliques) or when I’m with my family.

2. I keep too many things to myself because I dont know how to share it with other people. I dont think they will understand. I dont think I can express it really well.

3. I dont talk much . But. When I do. SOMETIMES I feel stupid. Because I think I speak recklessly.

4. I dont like the feeling of being force BUT I always keep on pestering  people.

5. I think my English sucks. Seriously. Even if you tell me that “IT’S OKAY lah“. Tak percayaaaa….

6. I dont like to walk alone. I HATE IT. Because I feel like I’m being watched.

7. I’m not afraid of TRYING new thing. Even if it’s freaking scary.. So that I could say “At least I tried“.

8. Sometimes I wonder why I didnt take AED (Architecture and Environmental Design). BUT. Learning ECONS is not that bad. I LOVE BUSINESS. I Love doing business.

9. When I feel so EMBARRASSED. I wish I could jump off a building. The things may not sound like a big deal but IF I feel so embarrassed.. It will REALLY REALLY bugging me. Even if you tell me “IT’S OKAY lah“. Seriously. It doesnt help me at all.

AH. Benci benci benci perkara memalukan. Kalau lah ada butan REWIND.

10. Some people think that I’m “great” “cool” whatsoever. But I’m just an ‘ugly’ girl like others. I’m really ordinary and so typical. Okay. Not that typical.

11. Sometimes I have a VERY low self-esteem. I never think myself as a very GREAT person pun.

12. I’m beauty conscious. When I was in high school, I couldnt stand wrinkles on my clothes and seluar slack.. Even if I’m just going to Dewan Makan for Dinner or KOOP to buys some snacks.. MESTI Iron Iron Iron!

13. I’m strong but fragile.

14. I’m a hopeless romantic.

15. I DONT LIKE youngers nowadays. What’s wrong with them? asdfghjklkjgfd Kecik kecik dahh.. Haish. Rasa macam nak sepak jer sorang-sorang. Tarik telinga bawak balik rumah. Sekor-sekor. Perangai macam haram. Itu belum lagi membebel pasal style pakaian..

16. I wish I could speak Thai fluently. I wish I learned Thai when I was younger. I wish my lidah is not so KERAS. Its hard for me to get the accent right! asdfghklsdfhj

17. As I grew older, I’m becoming sangat-sangat MANJA dengan my parents?

18. I want to marry my mother.. Hahahahaha….

19. I always want a boyfriend for the sake of my own interest. For example; When I’m hungry and the cafe was closed.. He would buy me foods. When I’m bored he would talk to me. When I dont have transport, he will be my driver.. What the HAHAHAHA.. =.=”

20. I can be pretty FUNNY & MENGARUT. Sometimes.

21. I love number 21 because my birthday is on 21 November 1990! Hahahaha..

P/s: This is FUN. Hahahaha..

What the heck is Formspring?

Wiki kata: It is a social question and answer website. Saffa kata: Website untuk berbalas pantun. You tanya, I jawab.

Masa Saffa mula-mula berFormspring. Memang lah FUN. Sampai lah sesetengah soalan start menjadi annoying dan tidak munasabah. Alhamdulillah tak pernah lagi kena “attack” yang melampau. Masih boleh di terima lah.

Ada lah yang entahh lah. Haha. Saffa tak ingat pun soalan pelik-pelik atau pun yang menyakitkan hati ker apa ker. Maknanya Saffa tak pernah lagi lah terKENA dengan soalan Formspring. RASANYA lah. RASANYA lah. Okay. Sebenarnya lupa.

Eyh. Tak tak. Kata-kata yang berbisa mana boleh lupa!

Saffa mula terfikir pasal perang Formspring ni masa Farha tanya Saffa;

Some people use Formspring to verbally attack others. How would you handle this situation? by farhaghouse

Perkara pertama yang Saffa teringat.. Andy! Then X and Nony. Yup. Dari Formspring dyeorang, Saffa perasan sangat-sangat dyeorang kena attack yang agak WOOAAHH..

Pengecut memang suka serang menyerang dengan menggunakan identiti anonymous. Eyh jap. Siapa yang serang orang pakai identiti sebenar memang, “WOAAAHH. Tabik SEPRING (spring)!”

Saffa pun pernah lah jugak pakai identiti anonymous untuk tanya certain questions kat sesetengah orang yang dekat Formspring ni. Soalan yang Saffa rasa agak personal.. (Bukan soalan yang berbentuk serangan!) =.=” Malu lah nak tanya “Face to Face”.. Hehehe..

Saffa rasa Formspring ni sangat bagus tau. Manusia ni kan macam Kucing. Curious jer. Elok-elok dah ada Formspring untuk kita sort out things yang kita tak tau. Nak clarify rumors etc.. Boleh plak buat jadi tempat bertikam lidah.

Tolong jangan jadi sungguh tidak MUNASARAWAK (munasabah) dan guna kan Formspring untuk meluahkan ketidakpuasan hati korang tu. Guna kan untuk lebih mengenali. Kalau dah tak suka and rasa orang tu annoying, yang korang pergi attack tu kenapa kah? OBSESS ker?

Tau tak KATA-KATA itu lebih tajam dari pedang..?

Jangan sampai kes Alexis Pilkington berulang. JANGAN.

Apa-apa pun, for those yang ada Formspring sepatutnya sedar the risks of formspring. And if you’re being attacked.. Apa lagi. MARI KITA BERPERANG LAH!

• I pon kena verbally attack by formspring. sedih sangat :( How do u handle this? by inxuel

Firstly, IGNORE it. Take a deep breath.. Listen to your favorite songs.. Play with something.. Watch movies.. Etc… Reply the question bila you’re in a very GOOD mood. I always do that. Hahaha..

“we cannot control the evil tongues of others;but a good life enables us to disregard them.”

BTW, If the questions are too absurb to handle and you already clarify the matters. Just IGNORE the questions. Membazir masa je layan lebih-lebih.. Makin you layan. Makin melarat! =)

Try tengok, betapa OBSESS the anon is with your life. IF you ignore the anon’s question.. I dont think that the anon will keep on attacking you.. The anon might call you coward for not answering the questions ETC..

But in the end.. The anon will just give up.. How long the anon want to attack you?

You kata A, Dia kata B, Then You kata C.. Dia kata E.. If you ignore.. Dia kata E, F, G, H, I, J …….. Z.. In the end.. there’s nothing more to say kan? Yeah. At some point. Those things will stop.

Cheers! :D

www.formspring.me/nursaffawati

Frankly speaking. Saffa AGAK cepat EMO. Dan biasanya, Saffa jarang reply soalan Formspring kalau tak ada mood. Kalau tak… Confirm jawapan formspring Saffa penuh dengan !$%^fghjk. =.=”

Warning eyh. Sumpah Saffa benci soalan bodoh. TAPI. Kalau mood BAIK punya. Saffa layan jer. Hehe. Kan dah kata Saffa ni “Emotionally Unstable“. T_T

Entri tak ada penutup. Terima Kasih daun keladi.

The realization struck me hard.

The only thing that I could do was staring at the assignment. I feel SO STUPID. Stupid for playing too much. Stupid for keep procrastinating. And stupid for addicted to surfing the internet. The stupidest thing is, not to be able to answer the questions eventho I’ve all the notes and reference.

I tried my best to hide my emotions. Slowly, I’m crying in my heart.. But it was so unbearable.. And the tears start to falling slowly.

I want the best. Not only for my self. But for my parents and family.

But somehow. Those A(s) are slowly disappear. The hope of getting 3.5 above seems almost impossible. The truth is.. I’m scared to death. What if I didnt get 3.5 above.. What if I didnt get a scholarship..

I couldnt imagine how I’m going to continue my study without scholarship. Seriously. This is so unbearable. *sigh*

Please laugh out loud at my stupidity. Thanks god there’s less than two weeks before the final exam. I’m not gonna give up. I’ll try all my best. It’s pay back time.

Susah betul jadi anak perempuan,
Tak boleh keluar sana sini,

Susah betul jadi anak perempuan
Tak boleh balik rumah lewat malam,

Susah betul jadi anak perempuan
Nak join itu ini semuanya ada batasan,

Susah betul jadi anak perempuan
24 jam akan dikawal macam kanak-kanak,

Dan bila Mak kata “Tak Boleh”
Terus hati tercuit, mahu marah, mahu memberontak

TAPI
Bila kenang Dosa & Pahala
Bila kenang Syurga di bawah kaki Mak
Bila kenang jasa & penat lelah Mak
Bila kenang garis-garis tua Mak

Hati ini terus SAYU

Bila Mak kata “Tak Boleh“
Hati kecil ini juga terdetik, kalau lah kata-kata sekecil ini tak mampu Saffa pegang. Tak mampu Saffa ikut. Bagaimana kalau dosa yang sekecil ini lah yang memberatkan timbangan Saffa ke neraka?

Sebesar mana pun kesedihan Saffa bila Mak kata “Tak Boleh“, tak mungkin boleh dibandingkan dengan jika Saffa buat Mak berhenti tersenyum lalu kecil hati kerana anak yang dikandung selama 9 bulan, yang disusukan selama beberapa tahun, yang dikendong dan dijaga pakai minum nya dari kecil.. Enggan mendengar.

Tia Sayang. InsyaAllah kita akan jumpa juga. Mungkin esok bukanlah saat untuk kita bertemu, tapi Saffa pasti.. Hari lain mungkin lebih bermakna! =)