Day 15 : Malam Ini Malam Saffa

9pm and I havent started studying yet. BTW, today is the last day for classes. Yerp, that’s right! No more classes! Yippieeee. And HELLO Final Exams. Blergh. *buat muncung itik*

Anyways, malam ini malam Saffa. Sebab apa? Sebab all my roommates are having a tutorial class right now. I didnt take that tutorial class cuz I’ve taken that subject last sem. So, yeah. I’m alone now. *cue Akon – Lonely* Hehe.

Tonight is the night where I always bermuhasabah but in the end.. end up doing the same thing. Honestly, I think I’ve tahap kesedaran yang amat tinggi. I KNOW this and that. But. *sigh* Yeah. I just think and know. That’s all.

My studies is getting worst. I skipped a lot of classes this semester. This sucks. And I know that my parents would be so dissappointed in me. There’s no hope for me in Business Math and Macroeconomics. The course assessments marks are damn freaking low. I couldnt even answer more that one third of the questions (Biz Math test). I dont even think I could get more than 20 marks out of 100 marks. SERIOUSLY. No kidding okayy! (more…)

Hello Silent Readers!

HELLO!

Okay. Kadang-kadang memang rasa agak pathetic bila cakap sorang-sorang. Sebab tu Saffa tanya, patut blog pasal apa. BUT. =.=”

Maksud Saffa denga rasa ‘pathetic‘ tu; membebel banyak-banyak tapi tak ada orang komen. It’s not that Saffa ‘gila‘ komen. It just that macam kita bercakap dengan kawan kita.. Tapi kawan kita tak respond pun.

Tak rasa ker macam.…. Agak Pathetic? T_T

BUT. Bila fikir balik. Bukan ker kebanyakkan blog yang Saffa baca pun sama macam Saffa? Menulis tentang diri mereka etc (personal life) dan tak ada komen sangat. Lagi pun blog ni kan memang tempat untuk merepek? Haha. Apa-apa je lah.

Anyways, sejak minggu lepas.. Memang tak banyak masa nak online. Bangun subuh pergi kerja, Asar balik. Maghrib terbongkang atas katil. Haha. Maka. Online pun dua tiga jam jer sebab kongsi laptop dengan Kakak. TAK PUAS! ;(

Oh ya, sedara Saffa dari Arab datang rumah. Sepupu Ayah Saffa.

Ahlan Wa Sahlan! (more…)

Truth Be Told;

(Inspired by Aneesah’s post)

1. I act completely different when I’m alone, in group (with cliques) or when I’m with my family.

2. I keep too many things to myself because I dont know how to share it with other people. I dont think they will understand. I dont think I can express it really well.

3. I dont talk much . But. When I do. SOMETIMES I feel stupid. Because I think I speak recklessly.

4. I dont like the feeling of being force BUT I always keep on pestering  people.

5. I think my English sucks. Seriously. Even if you tell me that “IT’S OKAY lah“. Tak percayaaaa….

6. I dont like to walk alone. I HATE IT. Because I feel like I’m being watched.

7. I’m not afraid of TRYING new thing. Even if it’s freaking scary.. So that I could say “At least I tried“. (more…)

Perang Formspring. Apa Kah?

What the heck is Formspring?

Wiki kata: It is a social question and answer website. Saffa kata: Website untuk berbalas pantun. You tanya, I jawab.

Masa Saffa mula-mula berFormspring. Memang lah FUN. Sampai lah sesetengah soalan start menjadi annoying dan tidak munasabah. Alhamdulillah tak pernah lagi kena “attack” yang melampau. Masih boleh di terima lah.

Ada lah yang entahh lah. Haha. Saffa tak ingat pun soalan pelik-pelik atau pun yang menyakitkan hati ker apa ker. Maknanya Saffa tak pernah lagi lah terKENA dengan soalan Formspring. RASANYA lah. RASANYA lah. Okay. Sebenarnya lupa.

Eyh. Tak tak. Kata-kata yang berbisa mana boleh lupa!

Saffa mula terfikir pasal perang Formspring ni masa Farha tanya Saffa;

Some people use Formspring to verbally attack others. How would you handle this situation? by farhaghouse

Perkara pertama yang Saffa teringat.. Andy! Then X and Nony. Yup. Dari Formspring dyeorang, Saffa perasan sangat-sangat dyeorang kena attack yang agak WOOAAHH.. (more…)

Membebel #002

*mengeluh*

Sombong. Gedik. Perasan. Whatsoever.

I wont care much about this blog anymore. I’m sorry that I’m not GOOD in socialising. I’m sorry that I always emo. I’m sorry that I couldnt be soo hypocrite and pretend that it’s okay. Owh. It’s okay. Okayy. Sometimes I do. But I’ve my own limit.

I’m not a Super Woman or own any Super POWER. I’ve feelings. I’m just a human. Typical girl with typical life. Up and Down like a wheel. Happy & Sad as you do.

Sometimes I tried to ignore the reality. Yeah. Reality sux. Sometimes I can be very opstimistic.. But, very often I fail to control my sensibility. “Sabar Sabar Sabar. This is LIFE. What’s Life without test test and test..”

*Tarik nafas*

Life sux kann. Fuh. Okay. Attitude and Worldview. I need to change my attitude and worldview if i dont wanna fall like a nangka busuk. I NEED TO CHANGE. But. yeah. Bukan senang nak berubah.

Susah nak jumpa orang yang boleh berubah dalam masa sehari. Tabiat lagi lah. Slow slow slow. But yeah. Where to find the enthuism to CHANGE?

I know I know I know. But how.. It’s not easy.

Dan manusia.. cepat lupa. I wonder if I.. You know. Can change and not forget what I promised to myself etc. (more…)

The 30 Days Project

Yup. I know I know…. Pretty drastic changes. From my blog template to my writing style (not really).

Anyways, while browsing around the tumblr. I found out about this 30 Days project. Soooooo interesting.. Persoalannya sekarang. Patutkah Saffa update di blog ini atau blogspot?

Day 01 — Your favorite song
Day 02 — Your favorite movie
Day 03 — Your favorite television program
Day 04 — Your favorite book
Day 05 — Your favorite quote
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago (more…)

The Calling

The realization struck me hard.

The only thing that I could do was staring at the assignment. I feel SO STUPID. Stupid for playing too much. Stupid for keep procrastinating. And stupid for addicted to surfing the internet. The stupidest thing is, not to be able to answer the questions eventho I’ve all the notes and reference.

I tried my best to hide my emotions. Slowly, I’m crying in my heart.. But it was so unbearable.. And the tears start to falling slowly.

I want the best. Not only for my self. But for my parents and family.

But somehow. Those A(s) are slowly disappear. (more…)